Finding it hard to believe

I'm talking in German with Irfan who is NOT German, hahhaha. VERY Confusing =D
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We make plans that aren't becoming

I'm leaving on the 16th and so is Arissa, my sugar pie, so i shall be meeting her at the airport ((::
I have seen Azfar but what about Rish? Oh, well. I'm losing SO muchomucho hair, man. Getting it trimmed some day this week. I reckon i should start packing soon. It's all happening so fast, wow. Hahaha. Naddie is a wanking git. I need to go look up ze lyrics for Bitterheart and You and I Both to learn for RIS Idol. Ciao xxx

Creations

Naddie made and i took ze picture (: There's more on my FB.

Open shores

A few snapshots from the last day of Camp

Me in the Boys Toilet on the sink, with my crazy partner in the mirror.

Abby and I during Drama. Check my hair.

Seherish and I at the playground in her compound.

In front of Nads' house. Today.

Yesterday was Sonias' birthday party. It was okay (: Celebrated at Pizza San Fran with me knowing no one in actual besides my real bitches and their sexxy boyfs. It was pretty funny because we had this real long table and on one side were all the Chinese guys and on the other the Malay girls and we were sort of in the middle. Blew her candles at the lake opposite us.

At Naddies' house it was hyperness all the way, and plus we took a video of us being just plain weirdly retarded. Ha. But my effin youtube account won't effin upload it. It's been saying Uploading for about more than 30 minutes. We watched Bride Wars and Coming Soon, though Naddie was too scared to watch it that we changed (;

Today i went to OU to meet Sunny and Azzy. Man, those two are aweeesssome like strawberries on whipped cream. Though, it was an insult fest aimed at me. It's okay. I still love them (: Sunny bought a nice pair of jeans at Forever21 and we went to Sushi King where i spent 32 ringgit and 90 cents worth of food. It was worth it, baby. So worth it. But, all those carbs. Diediedie. Need to 'work out'. We talked a lot and about good stuff (; Before i had to leave them lovies, met up with Dev. Heh. Then i went to Parkson and was persuaded to ditch my mom and brother. Hahaha, good memories of walking around in a circle.

My eyes have been going green lately. Ha. No idea why. Anyway, the RIS Idol is on Tuesday. Shit. I need to prepare. And i'm one huuugggeeee procrastinator. Plus, tomorrow is report card day. I told Marc and his respond? ''Want me to start digging you your grave?'' So much positivvity it's unbelievable. Wow. This post is rather long, isn't it? Shit. I need to start packing, lah. Haiihh.

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Do you even remember what the issue is?

School is so boring and opening night is on the 14th so i need to perfectly know me lines. Haihh. And i feel like ze teachers are targetting moi. Ish. xxxx

I'm on your cloud

Only a masochist could ever love such a narcissist

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Believe in me as i believe in you

I was just thinking and i am going to miss you. All of you, too.

Here's my top missing list :

Suzen
Sunny
Naddie
Abby
Azfar
Arissa
Seherish
Syaz
Marc
Momma and Pappa
-there is no order

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Can't get enough

When i entered the shower there was this spider in it trying to avoid the running water and so i took a sea-shell and scooped it up and put it out. Later on, though, when i came back to shower, again, it was on my towel so i considered making it into mush but just trapped it under my dustbin. Marc is coming back from Manila today (: I wonder what i shall do next weekend. Hang with D and then what else? Maybe party, lah. Last weekend, anyway and I've been good for so long, hahahha. But i reckon i have drama practice on Saturday. Shit, man. This week is going to be an intensive week of drama as the opening night is real soon. OMG! I watched The Silence of the Lambs with Hannibal Lecter in it and the whole story was so well thought of. Go watch it (:
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Lately

Today there was this small BBQ at my house with some cousins that i rarely see as they are normally in London, Aussie, Kelantan and Tanjung Malim (:

I have been such a Family person lately as i'm grounded -.-
Anyway, next weekend is my last in Malaysia and then i shall be in Germany for a whole effin' month like WTF. Why in the effin' world did i say Yes?! Just when things are all coolios -dramatic sob. As i was saying, i am planning on doing something big and meeting everyone who i have not met for a long time as i won't see 'em for a while (:

List :

Arissa/Amelia/Lara
Seherish/Azfar

That is the top of the list, anyway (: So no hurt feelings, yeah? Hehehe. Not that you're not important.

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Shocked as thunder

Well. Today was interesting. I was frustrated in the morning because i feel like everything i do just leads to shit and i'm just disappointing people -my mom- . Especially during Maths i felt so dumb and for English i got 60++. Like wtf. That just sucks balls and OW, my boob hurts. Ouch, ouch, ouch. Anyway, then later on i found out that a teacher found out about my 'status', hahahhaha. Not funny, btw. And i'm still wondering if you meant what you said yesterday cause you don't say that and then do nothing -.-

Everywhere

I somehow feel like some of the teachers have this 'thing' against me, i won't go into detail but still. I'm staying with that. Today was so tiring cuz we had Drama Practice and during that i was playing badminton and when i came home i did another round of exercise but for breakfast i ate ALOT as i was kinda annoyed and i binge ate, hehhehe. Then after Drama on the way to send Naddie home we ate KFC. Aweessome, i know you're jealous. I wish i was in Manila with Marc and all instead of being in a effin' classroom in school. Sheesh. Man, i'm leaving so soon, lah...

Peaceful, judgement, miraculous

this thread that weaves in and out of judgement,
where taking one step forward results in one step back,
and nothing is peaceful; it's all shaken up with thoughts,
somehow it's miraculous that you don't have the guts.

Well, today is in memory of Michael Gabrielli. Iloveyou and you're always in my heart, Daddy (:

Just now i was on web-cam with Suz(u), Sunny and Kelsey (: It was fun. School was un-eventful -big yawn. Who gives a fuck, anyway (: