Don't Let 'Em Say

My Title is a lyric from Eminems' song Beautiful. He's hot. Anyway, i think artist should write their own songs rather than sing songs people wrote. Because if it don't relate to you, what's the point? And and and, people, i do not look like fucking Hannah Montana, okay? Stuff it. Tomorrow is my performance. Ahh, Saiful better come. What am i going to wear, btw?

Amusing How You'll Hurt

You call me reckless.

My eyebrows have been de-bushed as Sunny would say. Crap, man. I find it so fucky how they do not have the lyrics of Bleeding by The Pretty Reckless. Anyway, the BBQ was rather boring but i had such an awesome time with my two babies'. I do love so extremly much. And i nak go to Akons' Concert, yo (: I just miss the whole atmosphere of a Concert. I don't even like Akon that much. I cannot believe that people would pay 500+ just to see Beyonce. Fuck that, man. Hahaha. I need to stop teasin', man.

Distractions Creeping Up

At every corner. I am suppose to be doing my Geo homework but yeahh. At least i'm doing it. If i was how i was last term i would just not give a fuck. Abang was like 'don't pretend you're a saint' and saying some shit about Lucifer. I don't understand that specimen that apparently is of same blood. Ouch, he gave me a wedgie just, now. Dear, Ass, you will never be the same. Tomorrow i am going out with Sunny and Suzen to the Koreans BBQ. Heh. And they will be sleeping over and the next day we akan gi shopping, babby (: I am intending to splurge on shoes, yo. I am luvvin it studded, man. It is tight as. I got a new phone. LG KS360. Sunita will most likely steal it when she sets eyes on it tomorrow. Remiding me, i need to wake up early, dohh. Better finish my project. And i need to remind me momma to buy a canvas tomorrow so the three of us can paint (: Btw, Selamat Hari raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Open houses are not my thing, yaw. I fell asleep on the chair at one. Shhh

No Love, Just Lies

It's been a week, is what i can say at the most. Most interesting events :

1. I got bitch-slapped
2. I got semi-tackled
3. I got an eraser thrown exactly in the middle of my head
4. There was a lot of shouting
5. I kept quiet for 2 hours

I don't know, man. I mean i really, really, really do not care what people think of me but what my friends think is different to the extreme. I guess just too many secrets at one go? Yeahhh. And like Abby said, If it meant something it could have been in the most twisted way not as bad as it seems but it didn't mean shit. To him, to me. So that sucks balls. I won't regret it, though, Sunita (:

On Medicine

Oh crap. My lips look like fuck, weh. They are daaammmmm swollen cause of my stupid sinus. Jeez. And i'm on medicines, again. They are suppose to bring the swelling down but no luck -.-

I'm Not Your Toy By La Roux is damm awesome, credits to Sunny for introducing me to it

Another Brick In The Wall

I luvv this song -selected lyrics, only-

And you'd be inclined to be mine for the taking
And part of this terrible mess that I'm making
But you, you're the catalyst
You'll be the pain
You'll be the scar
You'll be the road, rolling below
The wheels of a car
Don't know if I'm strong enough now
You'll be the
Catalyst

It All Seems

Like a dream

Watch Something So Personal Turn Into Nothing

Were you just looking for a hook up cause that's what you got. What i wanted, too. But it still hurts. God, this is why i ended it cause of how bipolar it all just is. I seriously cannot be bothered no more. I know i've said it before but seriously. Blerrgh -.- Secrets are not cool, man.

What Do I Got To Do

To make you happy?

Thursday Night

I need some excitement in my life. I would love to live life in the fast line.

Loneliness can cure my world

when i cant sleep
and my eyes are wide open
i start to wander,
over and over
down hidden doorways
of records of memories,
they all have a locked key
but i pry the doors open
over and over
just to see,
to take a peek
of the what ifs and maybe
and i wonder all alone,
and you play behind my eyes
over and over
just like an old record player
moments we shared and things
you said,
over and over
until i have enough thoughts
crowding my head
trying to make way
to decipher your words,
over and over
enoughisenough.

For all the hate to be swept away

Life is not what i would call dandy, it's been going slow and fine. Nothing that is of real interest happening. I'm out of the game, just so you know, can't be bothered no more. Hot damm, i was suppose to go to this what i would imagine awesome as party but complications arised. Stuff it. Though, this Saturday i will go shopping so yeah, bitch. I'm way too lazy to write shit here. I need to go think about what my password for Twitter is, tehe. Sometimes i just want to say a big FuckYou.

Just because you are breathing, doesn't mean you are alive.

My hands are searching

Realizing that you do not know shit of what you have been studying for more than 6 months is crap. I like painting, passes the time. Need to buy more canvases'. I have all my rap back, yeah (x Man, so many songs on my iTunes. So many unchecked cause my iPod is only 4GB. Oh hot damm.

Laugh out of pity

Holy shite. I am transferring my music from my memory card from my old phone and fuck, i was mainstream. But no worries, there is a hint of indie on it but now it's mostly. I mean, some mainstream songs are good, yeah. Tomorrow is puasa, oh hot damm.

6 more days

I keep on having butt ass weird dreams, yo. Plus, i would wake up a few times during ze night. But seriously, almost the whole time i've been in Germany, my night has been filled with a hint of a dream that will be remembered not of it's whole but of it's quality. That was long, a very long lame sentence that could have just been shortened. Anyway, on dream interpereter, now. This computer is so slow, dammit. Well, fine, let me try interpreting it myself. Perhaps as i enter the elevator i have the choice of going up or down but as i decide not to go either ways that means i'm just leaving it as it is. And the running, jesus christi, so much running. I'm boring you, aren't i? All this talk of dreams. So many words strung together. I shall stop. Right now.

Well, it's 6 more days till i am home. Back in home sweet home. I shall cherish the days left. I am going to miss Germany, fosho. Especially the views. Oh, the beautiful views. All those bloody long fields and forest. The way the sun shines through the green. Those cute couples seen in France. The amazing architecture of the buildings. The totally bipolar weather. I'll miss it (: Oh, and deffo my grannies' the most. And the shopping and cuties -drools, those will be minor missery thoughts. I tend to make up words, overlook it. Too many words. Oh, and how in the hell am i going to fit in meeting all me lovies in those two weeks i have before school while fiting in shitloads of studying. Stuff it. Ttfn x

If I wanted silence, I would whisper. If I wanted lonliness, i'd choose to go. If I wanted rejection, i'd audition and if I didnt love you, you would know.

I went and bought a few stuff yesterday (x Two t-shirts from New Yorker and omg, the cashier is so fuckin' slow each time i go there -.- And then these cute brown heels, which i have no idea how to describe but they are tres cute. And then i got a dress from Aunt Iris. Pictures from the dress and shoes are on m FB (: I want to buy maybe another dress and jeans that are not skinnies' (;

What i have so far :

Black singlet/halter

Black dress

T-shirt (3)

Pair of jeans

Shoes (3)

Handbag (2)

Bikini (3 pieces)

Shorts

Way too many accesories

Looking at quotes (:

Change of mind, change of heart

So, i haven't updated my blog since i've been in Germany, not cause i was having too much fun, but because i could not be bothered. And, now i just felt like i should. My last post, i have seen are all silly illusions that are not true, haha. Germany is beautiful, just like France/Paris. I love it, here. It's getting kinda boring waking up, eating, going online and watching tellie and walking everyday, though they have some great shows on MTV that are not shown in Malaysia, no suprise. Yes, i AM getting fatter. I'm lazy to put pictures up as the computer is this old thing and i don't feel like it. Go check my facebook (x I had a horrid dream. I won't go into details. Anyyhoo, i'm too lazy to type more and need to go on toilet, so ciao, xxx

Finding it hard to believe

I'm talking in German with Irfan who is NOT German, hahhaha. VERY Confusing =D
xxxx

We make plans that aren't becoming

I'm leaving on the 16th and so is Arissa, my sugar pie, so i shall be meeting her at the airport ((::
I have seen Azfar but what about Rish? Oh, well. I'm losing SO muchomucho hair, man. Getting it trimmed some day this week. I reckon i should start packing soon. It's all happening so fast, wow. Hahaha. Naddie is a wanking git. I need to go look up ze lyrics for Bitterheart and You and I Both to learn for RIS Idol. Ciao xxx

Creations

Naddie made and i took ze picture (: There's more on my FB.