You want what you can't get.

I am waiting for Lim, the driver, to pick me up from the Shah Alam house and send me to Arissas' in Ampang. She is having a play; tomorrow is Aishah Parkes Birthday. I am going. Marco is going. Arissa is going. I think my bitch, Azfar, and Aishah are coming, too. So, to the title. This is a list of what i want and can never, ever get unless i'm like, rich!! Oh, and for my babes' play tonight, she's going to be wearing a toga -hahahahh!- i'm going to wear gray skinnies, black Julius and Friends - Marc Jacobs- t-shirt with a colorful monkey and black boots. The MJ shirt is also black.

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Coco Chanel:-
Kidskin ballerinas with elastic edge
Kidskin pumps with elastic edge
Bicolor patent calfskin ballerinas with cap toe
Calfskin riding boots with overstitched logo
Lambskin classic flap with CC signature and strap made of chains
Union jack bag made of velvet calfskin

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Juicy C. :-
Magda quilted mary jane
Envy Ballerina Black
Else satin ballerina

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Christian L. :-
Sexy summer
Chic white heel
Mouche-shoes
Trotte Buckled Boot
Anemone black bow
Killer boots
Grey peep-toe
Knee high boots
Glitter Patent Slingback
Mary Janes
Christian Louboutin Very Brode pumps
Christian Louboutin blue patent leather
Christian Louboutin New Simple Pumps
Christian Louboutin Okay- Dark Red

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Ed Hardy :-
Womans 'Sky' Patent Leather 4pin. Heels in Black
Womans Vintage Wash Skinny Fit Jeans, ''Love Kills Slowly''
Womans Super Black Wash Skinny Fit Jeans, ''Signature''
Womans Darks Wash Boot Cut Jeans, '' Skull Rose''
Womans Summer Dress, ''Devotion'' In Green

Ed Hardy has nice caps and hoodies. There are like, so many nice caps. I need ass fitting jeans and yes, i am a brand whore, nothing less, thankyouverymuch. God, where is Lim ??! I have to be at Arissas' before 6!!I love flats a.k.a ballerinas and don't actually have nice and sexy proper heels; just this wedge from Bata that i wore for MERDEKA! in school, i guess, it's not really a wedge? Whatever. I'm in love high heels but of corse, i'm so tall, i can't buy them 'cuz they're too high or too expensive. Fuck that -.-

Help, i have done it, again,
Lost myself
Did you regret,
Every holding my hand ( never, again )
How can i decide what's right?!

Tehe. If you want to see the above list, you have to like, go on their website. Lyrics from 3 songs. So, anyway, i dared Rish to get all up in Lilys' face - i hope you know who Lily is! - until he responses and i'll have to hug Sandra - i hope you know who he is!-. Shit, right?! But i don't think she will. xx

I swear, alot.

I do, don't, i? I mean like shit! I'm s'pose to be writing my third script and i am like so not in the mood. Hahaha. It's all about Toyota and we could win 3 thousand but we'd have to divide it among the members and school. I love these songs at the moment called ''Decode'' By Paramore; ''Fuck More'' By Junkie XL; ''Fuck you'' By Archive and yeah. Heehee. Selected lyrics only. God, today was ass shit drama lah with the turkey neck crackpot bitch. Shit, got to go eat and my cousin is so amusing. HAHAHA. Back. My cousin writes about football on his blog!!! I know, right. Gosh. Hahaha. The cat is like freakin afraid of me and it pisses me off and now i am sneezing 'cuz i am allergic to cat fur. SHIT! I am in love with chocolate and am turning into a fat pig. Heh.

How can I decide what’s right
When you’re clouding up my mind?
I can’t win your losing fight
All the time
How did we get here?
I used to know you so well
Well how did we get here?
Well, I think I know
But you won’t take away my pride
The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Do you see what we’ve done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we’ve done?

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You`re a scum,  and I hope that you know
That the cracks in your smile are beginning to show
Now the world needs to see that it's time you should go
There's no light in your eyes and your brain is too slow
There's a look on your face I would like to knock out
See the sin in your grin and the shape of your mouth
Can't believe you were once just like anyone else
then you grew and became like the devil himself
Pray to God I think of a nice thing to say
But I don't think I can so fuck you anyway

The Second Time

The day before yesterday - yester-yesterday- and yesterday was fun.

Yester-Yesterday:
Mornin' was bad. Damm. But on the plus side i went home with Rish and we had fun, prank calling people, talking , eating and just being retarded. Her cousin fancies me. Hahaha. Getting to that topic, Rish, Mehvish and me dressed up her cousin and her brother in girl clother and put make up on them. The pictures will be up soon, just need to un-pack and re-buy a USB. Sigh.

Yesterday:
We went to Ipoh and it was fucking fun. Period.

Help, i had done it, again

Tomorrow is exam and i don't give a damm. Heehee. I've been having weird dreams, lately.Very weird.

France

I used to go there all the time when I lived in Germany with my boy friends' and their family. They were good friends. When I went back there, the Dad showed me around France real quick and in the car ride back we listened to French rap music. It was Christmas and all glittery but at night. Damm. Bought a doll and groceries, there.

It was night, we were at the swimming pool chatting with a hot trans. when this French dude came and started talking to us. He was the cook?? Yeah, he was like, hitting on me. I was 11, he was 2o+. ''I went to the military. I'm a bad boy.'' All that crap; he was doing all these fancy jumps in the pool and shit. He totally turned down the long haired, tanned, long limbs, skinny OLD trans for me. Hah. Fun.

Are you going to let me in?

I had Japanese for dinner. My favorite food. After, when we were going for dessert my lips became itchy and then swollen. Heh. Very Angie- esque. OMG. I HAVE to buy Season 3 of The OC. I mean, wtf ?! You don't end a season like that. OMGOMGOMG. Like, what's going to happen next, y'know. I have a new ring that i simply adore, babes. Hot. My new banner is up. It was hard work doing it, i had to use Paint, ok?! Paint. Sheesh. Can't wait for me new computer to be up and running and Wan if you're reading this you better have already come up with a song to sing. Jeez. I have no idea what song to pick, there are simply so many or should we sing our own. Hmmm, questions, questions. And OMG, Anakin Skywalker is fucking hot. What's his real name, anyway??! Looks alot like Hayden.. Hmmm... Yum.

This roller coaster ride of dislike

I put up a good front,
But,

The voice in my head,
Was like mockery,

An instant flame to hate,
In a blink,

These emotions so often felled,
Yet again,
A waste of time and effort and thought,

Just confusion,
Annoyance,
Why?

Trouble:

Is an adreline rush,
The excitement,
Filling your core,
Laughing,
Makes you smile,
Works your muscles in the face,
Yeah, i don't know what else to say.

Bored; Under Co- Blog

The house is a freakin' mess, non? So dusty; we're moving tomorrow and I need me iPhone. Hahhaha. Everyone says I shan't get one but I need an iPod. Waiting for Mum&Marc. Want to watch The O.C Season 2; read. Peace,x-Raisa

Do you have fun?

Because whatever you do; live a little- Peace,x-Raisa